what have we become?

we're special. the human race. god's greatest creation.
but with the ability to think and to differ and to grasp, why some of them have refrained themselves from using it the right way? and to commit monstrous acts which are.. unbelievably inhuman.

what have we become?
animals is animals. they are just animals. and they cannot go much worst than being animals.
monster derives from legendary creatures which is still believed to be animals. which animals cannot go much worst than being animals.

so for whatever acts that humans do, we cannot compare it with animals. because we are more than animals.

really exactly,what have we become?





my heart goes to those who are swollen.

i certainly was!

i was circumnavigating the world, well just another small part of it. i had let myself to be blown away with the sun. i was just dying. and i felt like it would be a total regret if i hadnt. i certainly was.



will tell more about my escapade when i have a huge amount of time to spend.

sorry about piggies on prev post. that was just me being angry and looked stupid! blurgh.

ouh! somebody is turning a year older!!

ooowwwwkaaaayyyyyy

hihihi.
today has been ok.
with juisi ayin and ding dong dar, things just went out a lil bit more than usual. but there were also few other things that were not usual. turned out to be just fine!

however, when things are final.. then probably things are really final. i cant really look back into it any longer. anyhow, time had totally given me the ultimate answer. drop it and run!

ouh yeah. im going to escape from whatever things from.

OMG!

you know these 2 combinations is bad. and so.. i got a shock of my life just this morning when i was still crippled in my sleep.

my sister sms-ed me asking me how's didi whether ive seen him lately? and yes i saw him yesterday, and seemed to be like any other teenagers to me. i told her, this was pretty weird for her to ask and i wondered why?

she replied with ' ye la, aku pon pernah teenager jugak, tapi dia ok tak? kerja harini ? habestu dia tu melelehlaa kat hospital ? '

of course laa saya pusing2 baru bangun tido agak terbelalak juga mata membaca hospital dan meleleh?

so i said ' apa yg meleleh kat hospital ni.. mcm geli je. kenapa nak tanya didi ok ke tak? dia dah buat apa? apa gossip baru? mesti ada pape ni... '

thinking that my bro didi would have probably made a girl pregnant and kantoi somwhere in between. thatd be the joke of the year. but no. it was a lil bit more than that when my sister called.

he had an accident, broke his collarbones.
my eyes were popping out, together with lil laughs. my sister was laughing too and blabbed about the text messages that we had earlier. ' no wonder laa blur jee! '. tapi agak hairan kenapa saya tidak di inform? why with all the proxies? kl to jb jb jb back to kl.. (the news i mean) so i called my older brother caman. he asked whether im working today or not, and that he would call back coz he was at the accident site and gonna report themselves to the police. so i say ok. i went to the bathroom quickly to get myself showered, and that was when i realized about the seriousness of this incident.

a week and a half earlier, didi sent me an sms, a very weird one which was TOTALLY out of the blue. he was worried about me, and that was unusual for him to do so. i was in jb that time, and he told me to stay home and dont go out alone as the I's is jungling up the city and that i have to take good care of myself. i got the message like 4am, only when it was daylight and wide awake i got to understand his message and feeling all weird and unusual.

zap! that thing ran thru my mind! and worried shit whether that was a sign! superseriously! u know the sign. like any signs when something is gonna happen. the SIGN! i turned panic! i panicked! i was hysterical! and that fear! i took deep breaths and showered asap!

i quickly called caman. asked him about the status. still in balalaika polis. asked him wheres Didi and which hospital. he said didi's beside him and he's ok! i laughed! i certainly was messing with my own mind.

then i called Didi personally. didn't think the hp would be available but yes. he sounded ok and i was surprised by how the hospital treated him, and as an outpatient? when he broke both of his collarbones? few questions asked, he seemed ok. but he said he's not ok.

so my mother and sister in on their way to KL. my father is ding dong mad and refused to follow.

i thank the Almighty for not taking him away.

you are what you love

of course you are what you love.

the shirt that you wear. the pants that u bought. the shoes that you had been wearing for a year now. the handphone that never leaves your side. almost everything that you put on, you bring along everywhere is practically the things that you love. you love child pornogrpahy, means ur pervert and sick and yucks. then it is that you are what you love.

ke? :P

but jenny lewis put it in a much way comel-er.



" you are what you love
And not what loves you back
That's why I'm here on your doorstep
Pleading for you to take me back"

what have i been doing lately? and a lott! this...

i should drink more water. and i realize that my lips could easily go chapped. lipbalms help but not as much as water. chapped lips is not attractive. drinking water too. but.. they say drinking em helps for you to grow fat. pump me now! gargles.

im passed 21 now. certainly no fun anymore. certainly no more careless mistakes. certainly more dreams that i have to keep up with. certainly everything has to be certain. certainly certain!

blurghs.

anyway, i think i am what i love.
are you not?

this horrible thing

i bought a coffee which tasted really horrible, and i bought it on purpose coz i know it tastes horrifyingly horrible coz i know tht it will help me to stay awake. i cant fall asleep now, if i fell asleep, my body will be entirely invaded with this lame thing and that i would lose myself. but i am losing myself and i am already lame. just that i dont want to be any lamer. :P

so, have u seen the invasion? nicole kidman is the lead star. its a sci fi movie about aliens. like any other alien invasion, only that this time they invade using viral infections + humans become lame = surprisingly to make the world a better world. they didnt come with gooey looks or slimy and being gory, theyre these small thing. the movie was A okay, i like the part where you have to stay calm and cant sleep and be emotionless. it was funny on some parts. however, i just like more of kidman in fur. not she hairy hairy.. no. the movie 'fur'.

the fireworks thingy that is going on in putrajaya, it was awesomely beautiful! im gonna catch the grand finale tomorrow. just to get my jaw dropped and be really really entertained by the lights and the booms! its the real superstar! woot!

i cant sleep.. not now.