my spectacle

i was surprised to see that the lens of my spectacle was dirty, cause i saw things clearly. so i cleaned it with a piece of tissue quite carefully. cant help but thinking, how important it is to me.
back in the school days, i wore it coz i wanted to look cool, to look just as same as my bestfriend. in order to do that, i tricked my parents, the optometrist, and asked my eyes to do that magic, that only me was able to do. make my vision blur.
my father was shocked to see the amount of shortsightedness of my eyes, he even brought me to an eye specialist at the hospital for consultation. still i succeeded in tricking everyone that i my eyes were really faulty.

after breaking up with the bestfriend, the coolness of wearing one had also went away. i was spectacle-free for quite number of years, only that one day i realized that my eyes were really getting a bit blur and dizzy although i didnt ask myself for that blurry vision. and so i went to the same optometrist who tested me before. He was shocked to see my vision had totally reduced from last time (coz i didnt use my blur ability). he was happy, even checked my eyes whether i had any scars, whether i have gone through a surgery. i went out from the shop with a new lens presciption. not shortsightedness but astigmatism.

how spectacle evolves around me?
it was only for basic use. because ur rabun, u wear it. but over years, it has become a huge part of me, a very important part of me. not only as the fixer to my eyes, but also a fixer to my broken soul. im not really broken la, but in a way of simply saying... yes. i have always have this low self esteem, all shy and ++... but with my spectacle on, i feel like it helps me to hid my eyes, to hide me, to not let me let out my true feelings, to let me express, to make me a little bit more confident and comfortable. its like wearing a sunglass, only transparent. something like that. there were also few times i wore contact lenses, especially the colorful ones. they boosted up a little more, with different effects of wearing, but much more hassle and tiring. so i still stick with the one that stucked on my ears with support of my nose.