hari sabtu hari apa ??

Hari Raya!
therefore i'd like to wish my fellow muslims Happy Aidilfitri, and to enjoy your triumph for having to fast the whole month..moderately, humbly.. but happy. :D

Mine was funny and just crazy. i mean, during that time it wasnt really funny or crazy, but seeing the pics that i took, this year had been quite different. not quite.. a lot actually.. on other things as well. and the kids were just ecstatic. raya must have meant so much to them, just like back then. and my home, is the kampung halaman that they will be telling their friends, and cherry on top would be.. ermm.. " i really have a super cool aunt ! ". ok.. tak kene mengena.

i wiki-ed aidilfitri and just like i thought, the maaf zahir batin is a tradition which is only going on in singapore and malaysia. but i didnt read till end coz its just too long. yeah! but this tradition is good, its like lifting a little guilt thats been hanging inside you, like coming clean.. especially if you're being honest. :P about me, i think i havent been that honest when kneeling and asking to forgive. coz i have these dark truths that i didnt think my parents would be delighted to forgive. so i cried. but most times that i cried wasnt due to the dark truths, just for the facts that i hadnt been nice to them. sometimes... tapi mengada je nak menangis, coz truly simply there were just heavier things going on with my parents and the older siblings. older.. i really mean olderrrrr.

besides, its just unfair on one thing. reason : if we think we're really right doesnt mean we dont have to apologise. the person who has asked to be forgiven is of course to be forgiven, and in return, we shouldnt be bongkak to just say.. alright you're forgiven. how do you know if we were really being right? how do you know that the forgivee doesnt hold any grudge or thinks that we're right? there must some part they must have felt we're also wrong and by being the one asking is a gesture to make peace. to ask is already a token, coming out from that mouth takes a whole lot of courage and to ask in return, is a real humble slave to Almighty.

just a thing i observed at home. i guess that event made me. so, i really really want to do things right after this. whats the use of saying it without doing it? its just hurtful seeing. kalau buat kat orang lagi la kan? but im laying low, id behave whenever i can.

but heh, what is world without unfairness?
i am just againts the world. with dizzy, we're two againts the world. anybody?

ouh! have you seen bourne ultimatum? that movie made me gone haywire! its too crazy to compare or to comment. mcm... agagagaggaa. best gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

another movie which is also breathtaking, but totally different genre is " the mighty heart ". its based on a true story, and i read about the story on Times which they interviewed the real person, i mean the woman i forgot her name. basically that movie was about daniel pearl's wife, telling about the agonies that she had to go thru during the event where her husband went missing for months ++ and finally a video footage being sent with gruesome beaheading scene of her hubbie's. thats just that and sad. and jolie played it really well. i never really gave her any credits in acting, but this one might just change my mind. you should really watch this one. i mean, i dont know if this story being berat sebelah tunjuk barat and everything bad about islam... but still, behead someone is just too much regardless of what reason so ever.

why cant they see? to request is not by force, and to be powerful is not with violence! *mengeluh*

:P

so, happy thoughts from now on!
woot!

** forgivee is not an english word. putting ' one to ask ' is too long. its some sort of.. mentor mentee. forgiver forgivee.