me hope for..

i kinda miss my old cluster with bunch of cool people. now that ive moved to a new one with a new bunch of people.. cant help but feeling how terribly i am missing my old one. hehe although we are not that far apart (like only few steps away), still! although not that far apart, the environment make things more complicated.

so.. how am i doing?
im doing fine, just alil bit faint and faded.
and that i dont know what to expect about the checkup tomorrow. i told dizzy that i thought of the worst, he said i was a pessimist. but i replied with Ifs prepares me for when.. so i wouldnt be that sad if its true..and that if its nothing.. totally jolly about it. he still said i was a pessimist. and i think.. whoever has that positive waves running in and out of their minds, is totally out of this world.

yeah. im a lil dizzy here now. ive never really been to a specialist for something that looks serious. so this kinda gimme shivers to the bone.

im giving names to my lumps. the right one would be lola, and the lefty is loli.
merepek. so in a way, im giving names to my boobs.

so let the sunshine, let it come.. to show me that tomorrow is eventual, which i only know it when the day is done.

miow.