slow down, please.

awesome wednesday is today. it is hot but not that hot, i think its gonna rain somewhere in the late afternoon. i woke up early today, coz i just had to go for lunch, i dont wanna skip afraid that i wont be healthy tomorrow. and i dont wanna sleep now, afraid that i might get a terrible headache later.

i have few other things to do other than blogging, but knowing that i have things to speak out though not important.. my thoughts just need to be jotted down, plus ive been meaning to write for so long, and it hadnt been done for past few months and now i think i need to do what had been procrastinated.

earlier on, i watched the debate from 2 big debaters. its tiring really, and i mean m not tired of watching 2 people getting back at each other about their stands.. only that it makes me wonder, and its tiring to think of the whole. i dont have any political views, and if tomorrow the governments going to be reformed.. id still be the same. just like any other fellow citizens... especially those who are hard earners. no matter how, we all would still be struggling. yeah, if the fuel gone down of 50¢... it is a relieve, but we all would still be struggling for something to look forward which in any matters at all.. to find more cash and keep afloat. i know i speak of being ignorant, ouh.. i am one coz i didnt go home to vote.. but bigger things need to be put for thoughts and to worry about. you would get the idea especially if you depend solely on employment pay. :( i know i need to stop 'not to vote', although maybe 1 vote from me might not change the whole power picture.. at least i am being responsible. i guess. and with the whole new internet tech blogging online media whatever the new generations can get hooked on, its just hard to continue being ignorant. like me. ouh, biffy is my source of things like the above coz he read and follow a lot about things, in exaple like the above (and he voted :P). and whenever i read about the news online, id go to him to know more.. and turned out uglier than i thot.

and disturbing. im not siding anyone, but if anyone were to come up with the idea of PK.LH sodomising a young adult... i find it impossible too.

enough.

me now.

have i mentioned about losing a small part of my tetek had made my face grow lotsa pimples? yeah. thats one of the observation, its really not cool. and clinique doesnt do that much magic anymore. :P but im chilling now, coz i thought that maybe my body is still adapting with my tetek's lost.. but it past 5 months now? ngaaa. i should stop chilling yeah? i hate ads. they make me ugly. :P

my life's a routine. im still living on day to day basis. its not good, and it doesnt bring me anywhere but changes will be made when things come to me knocking hard on my chest. i know i cannot wait for that.. but drive my friend... drive. i have a lil in me now... and im making small steps.. but hey, although in a slow motion, im still moving. yeah?

ouh, me and biffy... we're buying a place to stay. its awesome! i just cant wait to move in. ouh not yet.. i just cant wait to paint, to decorate, to furnish, to sweep to clean up whatever.. and move in! its nice to stay at a place where you can call your own. awww.

and about me and biffy, from last entry there was a slight teasing statement stating that something was going on between me and him.. and im really glad that things had come to light. and the other day, we went out together with his sister and we reminisced about how terrible this one fight that i had with biffy where i threw my shoes at him, and the second terrible fight and more. and i realized that i have grown matured, and so does he and how we tackled the latest blackout in our relationship.. how i made moves to spill all the beans and i dont know. but its so totally cool now coz however hard things get, we're still moving forward.he's jus the cutest thing. ouh but i dont know yet, coz he found a new hobby.. which he gotten himself a big bike and spend a lot on it.. and yeah, i hope he would still have time to spend with me. not on me. mind you. :P there is a difference yeah?

ouh music! so very much alive in me.. and it is the only blanket that id hide into if im in a deep muddy shit. the other day, something happened where i gotten myself unhappy knowing that biffy doesnt have that much heart in things that i love. not much that was asked.. only asking him to watch this one vid that i like and its just sooo hard to get him to watch it. and he only watched it when i started to back-off coz i know that he watched it coz he just had to and it looked not sincere. i hate myself at that time for taking things too seriously. its a small thing to ask and to make a bigger deal out of it.. but is it a bigger thing to do from a small thing that was asked? yeah i dont know, but i have always been enthusiastic about things that he likes and support him whatever though sometimes not my thing... but yeah. im not complaining really.. reaallly. just a small piece of heart that i find it swollen. i didn't get to tell him how i felt about the other day.. about the music video thing.. so yeah.

four leaf clover. "According to legend, each leaflet represents something: the first is for hope, the second is for faith, the third is for love, and the fourth is for luck."

its my new thing now. i got a necklace with pendant of four leaf clover. from Aunt Feroza. its beautiful really. :D and i just gotta know the superstition thing about it the other time when i wiki-ed. yeah.

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